My precious Beau entered the world early morning with the sun shining in through the window of our room surrounded by his brother's and his sister.
After losing a baby last April there was nothing my heart desired more than to fill that space with a precious little one. I had set my heart on that precious soul that awaits us in heaven and I longed to see God's creation in completion again.
Beau YOU are the answer to my every prayer in those days. Carrying you in my womb anticipating your arrival with joy. I was tired and weary running after those brothers and your sister but I longed to hold you.
As one by one our little ones came down with the 24 hour flu, mamma got hit hard. I was friends with the porcelain goddess (I'm not fond of her) and wretching in a way I hadn't experienced in a long while. This, my love, sent me into contractions.
9 days prior to your predicted arrival I felt you shift down and the power of giving you your first breath took over. That evening after laying everyone down in our room for the night with their sick tummy's and sweaty brows, I knew you were coming.
I spent that night on the couch with my headphones on and the audio I had created to keep my mind focused on Christ whispering in my ears. I knew the road could be long and I wanted to rest. God granted me that prayer and through many portions of the night I rested and fell asleep between contractions. No children rose, no one threw up, my sickness faded and when the morning broke at 6:00am I told your daddy it was the day.
I called my friends we had invited into your birth space and texted the midwife letting her know you were coming today.
As soon as the children were up the bustle began and daddy spent the earliest morning preparing the room/bed. My parents arrived to help with the older kiddos and I labored around the house moving from spot to spot finding comfort and ease in the contractions.
It felt like a breeze miraculously. I was overjoyed to be home and to have everyone there. As things progressed, within a short 5 hours you had made your way down we prepared for your entrance. All your siblings gathered round and the pressure intensified.
Carol moved that cervical lip I always have, it's as painful as it can get, but once it was moved you were barreling into the world.
It was just the most perfect and precious experience for me to be home and to bring you up into my arms. With all the children gathered around to see you take your first breath, we instantly fell in love. I praise the Lord for your most precious and perfect birth and I am blessed beyond measure.
I hold you close sweet boy. I treasure you. You are a gift to me and I'm so thankful to be your mommy. I would repeat that experience a thousand fold for the joy of holding a little one again!
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